smoothies

today my mom gave me a smoothie.
the first thing she said when she handed me a tall glass of what was a pink thick substance, “wow this actually tastes really good”.
now, for the normal kid, a smoothie is a smoothie. it is a fruity, sweet, and delightful drink that one can drink on a hot day. you cant really go wrong with smoothies, ice+fruit+juice=smoothie. so i guess you could say that my mom’s statement was a bit odd because of COURSE a smoothie should taste good, unless you are my mom.

my mom has had a very interesting history with food and cooking, and by interesting, i mean terrible. she has definitely gotten better over the years, but from elementary school (when i actually could remember most things that i ate) to middle school, you could always expect some strange concoction to be on your dinner plate. i guess i will go into her cooking later because i DIGRESS.
back to smoothies.

to make a smoothie, my mom puts whatever she can find in the refrigerator into a blender and basically hopes that no one can taste the bell peppers and carrots and random seeds&nuts, AND that the combination of fruit and juices turn out okay. 9/10 the smoothies taste NOT like any smoothie that you will/can ever imagine. it’s more like a not so tasty health drink.

but today was a special day. it was that 1/10 smoothie that tastes perfect.

im too scared to ask my mom what she put inside this smoothie because i know that if i do, then i will not want to drink the rest of it. haha

i still cant believe how yummy this was.

GAH I BOUGHT NEW EARRINGS! HEHE WOW WOW WOWWWWWWW!!
im always stuffing my ears with the most biggest and obnoxious earrings muahahha
the cupcake earrings always so came with ice cream cone earrings and cake earrings. HEHE

oh, by the way, i finally watched Bourne Supremacy. which is amazing because im always too lazy to finish the last set of the trilogy(ie. xmen, shrek, spiderman). oh, except for Lord of the Rings. and pirates of the carribean. or…well, i guess i am not that lazy.

reputation

it is kind of amazing how a couple words gossiped about that one person can change how those who choose to listen and believe those words, view that person.
(pause)

it’s as if people are no longer capable of thinking and judging for themselves and would rather blindly agree with whatever is being discussed about this one person by everyone else. whatever happened to giving them the benefit of the doubt? and not just that, but when does it ever make sense to say that you believe that this person is like this because your friend said so.
please, that is so elementary. and plain stupid.
(more pause)

i know that hate is a strong word, but i hate miscommunication. i hate how people are sometimes uncapable of empathy. i hate how people are so quick to believe everything that they hear.

it makes me want to regret ever thinking that you were a good person. and i hate regretting.

7/8/09 whatta great day!

today was i guess a supposedly interesting day.

the cake was yummy! i realized after making it that it looked very patriotic…haha

anyway, like i said before, birthday’s are just another day for me. i guess it should be kinda special, but i dont like to make a big fuss on birthdays…
Oh, but it is a good excuse to get presents/buy presents for oneself

say hello to mah new baybahhhhhhhhhhh

song for tricia (princes and frogs) – superchic[k]

You hate men is what you say
And i understand how you feel that way
All girls dream of a fairy tale
But what you got’s like a used car sales
Man, trying to conceal what’s wrong
Behind a smile and a song
And i’m not saying that boys are not like that
But i think you should know (You should know)
That some of us will grow
Because…

All princes start as frogs
All gentleman as dogs
Just wait till it’s plain to see
What we’re growing up to be..
Some frogs will still be frogs
Some dogs will still be dogs
Some boys can become men
Just don’t kiss us till then

so far into summer…

so i guess im not totally being a bum at home:

made some oboe reeds

painted my nails (black)

curled my hair

got bitten by a kid. yes, bitten. children have the sharpest teeth…anyway, i was babysitting him and had to pick him up because he was running away from the room we were suppose to be in.

-ive also been reading “The Problem of Pain” by CS Lewis. a book i randomly saw in my dad’s office that i decided to read. it’s also less than 200pgs…hehe
-i went running with my dog the other day, and am STILL recovering from it. i basically dont like walking down steps. and i hobble around like an old lady. seriously.

so summer is basically my cup o tea. now hopefully it will be as carefree for the next couple of months…

i already been over this subject…

BUT i still cant believe how we, as humans, really arent all that different. especially the experiences we go through. you may think that youve been through something that no one else will ever understand, but people definitley have been in your shoes. probably thousands of people have dealt with whatever youve experienced before…which is kind of mind boggling.
but when i think about how at least one person can relate to how i am feeling, it’s somewhat comforting. i mean, hopefully a good percentage of the people who have already experienced/felt the same things that i am going through/was going through have turned out fine. so then, i should be pretty A-okay!

oh, not that i feel like im going through anything. it was just another bumbling thought in the bubbly brain of mine.

cakies

in a week or so, it will be my birthday.
normally, i dont really care about my birthday because it’s just not that big of a deal to me. i seriously feel the same age since i was in first grade. i dont feel any older nor younger, and i guess it should be more of a celebration for your parents/mom.

however,
this summer, because i am not particularly busy, i will be making myself a delicious birthday cake.
im basically going to either recreate my own cake (picking out the flavor of the cake, filling, icing, etc.) OR picking out a recipe of a cake that is from start to finish.
it will be great.
it will also taste great.
muahaha..

so yeah…ive basically been fantasizing about this future cake during the past few days…
i think im just really excited that i am finally going to be doing something that has been scheduled, instead of just moping around the house and whatnot. haha

moving

i detest packing and unpacking. and moving boxes to and fro from the house to the car. the car to the new house. blahhh.

but i guess it’s kind of cool to see whatever trinkets were lost underneath your bed/desk/etc. it’s like finding treasure! and i like throwing stuff away. there’s something nice feeling about throwing all those useless items that youve kept for so long because you felt too guilty/lazy/forgetful to throw away.
like those tiny mini plastic bottles of lotion. who uses them anyway?
or unusable pens.
old candy (uh, ew).
cassette tapes! i found a million of them in a drawer, and random cd’s.
clothes you no longer or ever will fit into no matter how much you tell yourself “i will lose that 23lbs”.
random small storage containers that contain more crap you dont need.
individual packets of old old tea.
…andddd other weird stuff!

I FOUND THIS AND I AM TOTALLY GOING TO KEEP/USE IT!! SO EXCITED YOU HAVE NO IDEAAA

anyway, in other news:
i use to write “anyway” like “anyways” until my best friend one day pointed out to me that “anyways” is spelled like “anyway”. that was some new information i put in application immediately and has forever changed me.
haha.

happy father’s day

show your dad/father-figure how grateful you are to them that they didn’t stuff you in a shoebox and sold you for $12.
(and if you don’t have a dad, hence “father-figure”! )

i was going to make my dad a cake for father’s day, but unfortunatley at our local church, there was a huge bakesale. i figured that he would be stuffed with too many sweets by the time he got home so i ended up dipping strawberries in chocolate. probably one of the easiest and yummiest things you can do

but seriously, if you arent going to voice your appreciatation for your father anytime soon, just do it nowwwwww!!!!!!!

love

the world needs more of it…

(um, and not just the romantic kind)

weird (or maybe normal?) likes/enjoyements

i hope that some people can relate to the following pleasures/things i like to do i am going to list (and perhaps add on to..)

-looking through engagement and wedding photos. everyone is dressed nicely, and everyone looks so happy. so happy.

-flossing and then spitting out the blood (yeah, i should floss more…)

-eating really spicy food late at night. or eating anything that is sweet&salty at night.

-coming up with names for my future nonexistent children

-being alone and doing absolutely nothing, and then telling my friends that i cant hang out because im busy (but really, im not). i dunno, i guess there’s something nice about being just by myself with my thoughts and stuff

-picking at my finger&toenails, and the skin around it

-people watching, and then making scenarios about them

-being really blunt and truthful (uh, i try not to do this too much. i think people get offended)

- worrying about my future, and making mental plans about what i am going to do in order to “succeed in life”. whatever that means

- watching shows that involve some sort of drastic transformation: biggest loser, extreme makeover: house edition, what not to wear, etc.

- staring in the mirror and attempting to make lasting dimples on my face

“magic’s biggest secrets revealed” and summer plans (sort of)

i just wasted an hour of my life watching this tv show “magic’s biggest secrets revealed” and feel so cheated. i can no longer ever watch any type of magic trick and being impressed. all of these revealed secrets are so dumb. haha.

anyway, in other news:
i packed and cleaned all day today. it was kind nice to throw away things that i no longer needed and organized everything into boxes…

okay, so i am terrible at sticking to lists and whatnots, but this time i will try to do some of the following this summer: 

-read. READ. read lot of books. interesting books. hopefully ill find that list of books that i want to read and them actually read them..
-beach. i will go to the beach, not to just lie in the sun and get a tan. but just to enjoy nature and whatnot
-practice. practice. and more practice. seriously! SERIOUSLY. i really will try to practice everyday. hopefully at least 2-3hours, and perhaps bump it up to 3-4hours  …im trying to be realistic here so i guess i wont make any drastic promises to myself. the poopy thing about practicing is that i will be practicing the non fun stuff. all the technical things instead of pretty music i like playing
(note to self: be as good as an oboist as a musician)
-friends. spend time with them
-family. spend time with them )) really.
-run. or some form of running. or something that is remotely close to moving one’s legs somewhat quickly…heh heh 
 -buy longboard and ride it! i am really excited to make this purchase, it is going to be a gift to myself, and it will help me get over certain things
(um, like hills and whatnots)
 -watch my parents cook and learn. i need to learn how to make more korean dishes because sometimes i really crave korean food. ie. japchae (cold/warm korean noodle dish with veggies)

 

HEHE I AM EXCITED. VERY EXCITED! 
 

uh, the last photo was NOT taken with any special effects…
 :)

summer is going to be no bummer

at first i was kind of bummed that i wouldnt be spending most of my summer in socal because i didnt have any sort of job lined up for me in norcal and i knew that i would probably wouldnt be doing anything. at all.

and im not. i am not doing anything in norcal this summer. i guess i could be looking for a job, but who seriously wants to hire me for 2-3months? and i guess my pride is preventing me from applying to those terrible physical labor/customer service type jobs. yeah, ill leave those for the high school kids to do.

but after a few days of groaning about how i would be away from all the comforts i have in irvine, i kind of realized that it would be nice to just get away from everyone and everything that i am so used to seeing all the time.

i mean, it’s just the same routine of going to school, doing homework, practicing, eating, sleeping, etc. that is getting to me. it’s going to be really nice to no longer see the same group of people all the time. to not involve myself in whatever drama is happening at the moment. to be far (er, not that far) away from all of it. i guess i didnt really want to admit that i am pretty sick of a lot of things in college.

gah, i get bored way too easily. but i honestly dont think of that as a bad thing…

ahhh yes, i am so so so excited for summer!

give&take

you know what?
(chicken butt)
no.

yesterday i realized that i should not ever expect anything from anyone, ever. in a million years. even more than a million years…

it’s not that i no longer believe in mankind or dont want my raised hopes to get burned down (to the ground, i just wanted to add that part in because it makes everything more dramatic).

it’s just a simple fact that came to me while i was fuming in annoyance over a friend of mine that i felt i had given a lot of time&love in that friendship, and it was not being reciprocated.
while i was wondering why in the heck is this friend being oh so selfish, i realized that first of all, friendships should not be based on rewards&demerits. i shouldnt believe that because i did A, B, and C for this person, that i will receive the equivalent of that in return someday.
second, i shouldnt being doing things for a person if i dont want to, i should do it because i want to despite whatever happens in the future.
and third, these means that i should not expect anything from anyone.

if a friend does a nice favor for me, cool. if the same friend does not, cool (again). i should never expect anything in return because i am just a normal person as well. who do i think i am to believe that i deserve to get something back? i am no king/hero/great human being.

i dont really know why i thought/realized this now. i guess it would have been more convinient to have known this before, then i wouldnt have done all those awesome things to everyone. just kidding!
i think i like being pleasant.

))

anyway, i think ill write another post about this upcoming summer.

oh summer, i really cannot wait for you to begin. really.

mm. strawberries.

mm. cake. with strawberries!

(photo credits to edwin. he chill, like, frreal)

new bangs!!!

im bothered by them already. -_-
the wind blows them all around my face and pokes my eyes. and when i practice i have to clip them up to see the music.

sometimes i am really tempted to wake up in the morning and shave a part of my head.

you tell me i look like a butthole and i will do nothing.

gahh i look so korean. -_-

askjeeves.com

dude, that was one of the first search engines ive ever used…now im on google.com all the time and neva gunna look baaaacckkk..

okay, back to what i meant to write:

If you go to  www.askjeeves.com and type in “21 deep questions”, one of the most popular searches that pop up IS MY BLOG. HEHE.

well, it links you to the 21 deep questions entry that i wrote a long time ago. and that entry was…dumb. well, it was for giggles and butts. 
BUT STILLL!!!!!

I AM SLIGHTLY..UM, cool. actually, no.
i mean, how many people would type so specifically like “21 deep questions”. i mean seriously, who wants to look stuff like that up?

apparently the world BECAUSE DASS WHY IM POPULARRR. just kidding, i mean, i really do not care as thaaat much. i mean, yeah i care but i wish it was over some other cooler (in my opinion) entry. )))

 

 

okay, that was it. the end.

i like being nice to people

that sounds really stupid to say/write…

but it’s true. i mean, i really do enjoy being sincerely nice to people, even if i feel grumpy. i guess you can say that im being somewhat selfish because im feeding off self gratification high that i get from being cheerful to other people/from doing favors for them without being asked, just for the heck of it. but cmon, if those who receive my generosity dont mind, then it cannot be thaaat bad, right?

right.

and i feel like, if everyone in the world tried to go out of their way just a couple of times a week to do something positive to someone else, then there would be less cranky people. seriously. i mean, it doesnt have to be a big gesture…

aaannyywayyy, im going to go off and sleep in the sun.

love love love (edited)

sometimes i feel a tad bit awkward whenever i really like a certain song that i just heard that is about love, and about being in love, or having one’s heart broken, etc. because i for one have never been in love at all.

i think there should be more songs about liking. i have been in like a lot of times, all the time!
but seriously,
sometimes i really want to recommend some song about love on my facebook status, but i dont want people to think that i am relating my past/current experiences with these lyrics because that is totally not the case since it has not happened to me…

i am also always intrigued whenever someone tells me that they have been in love before. it’s even more interesting when that same person claims to have been in love more than once.
i wonder how that feels, to be in love. and to be in love more than once at different times.

or maybe those people who say that they have experienced love are really confusing it with extreme infatuation/obsess/liking. or maybe they actually have felt the real dealllll, which is pretty darn cool.

i am one curious cat.

edit–

this is the song (Knock You Down – Keri Hilson) i happened to be listening to that i likkkeee …oh, the link doesnt worry, but if you click on it, it will.
but i didnt really realize what it was about until i looked up the lyrics. i wasn’t too sure if she was happy that love knocked her down or if it she was sad… im bad at listening -_-

via text vs physical contact

the one thing i really dislike about the internet is how people interpret texts.

ive realized that no, people are not going to always read things the way you meant it. people can always take whatever you wrote oh so differently then what you meant, and that saying that you didnt mean for someone to read something in a bad way then what you meant is NOT a valid enough excuse.

it doesnt matter what you really meant to write, or what you meant to say, if someone reads and interprets it totally different from what you originally meant, it is your fault.

which is why i discourage the following over the internet/texts:
-sarcasm: people wont always be as amused when they read that you just called them a “big fat lazy cow” as a joke. it really isnt worth the explaination+apology+stupidity on your part
-mad emails: again, a stupid stupid thing to do. you are obviously thinking extremely emotionally, so save your face by waiting a day or two before you start to type up whatever you wanted to again.
-any other ambiguous texts that aren’t clear: people are always bound to read something that you wrote and take offense to it, even if it has nothing to do with them or isnt suppose to even be the slightest bit hurtful. if you are going to write an “angry post”, it’s better to be clear about it. i think i once jotted down some quick mental notes i had in my head and for some “crazy” reason, those that read were greatly offended over something that: A) was a simple complacent observation B) had nothing to do with them C) was not written out of rash emotions at all

people are crazy i tell you.

i guess you could either really be specific on how you write over the internet/phone, or not really care.
i tend to borderline on the not really caring zone. i mean, if you know me, then youll know when im being funny/sarcastic/annoyed/ponderous(is that a word…)/etc.
if you dont, then it’s not really my problem, right? it’s not my problem that you havent taken the time to build this thing we call a relationships and whatnot. and why would you be reading this if you A) do not know me and then therefore B) a stranger.

probably because im a delicious gumdroppy fella.

another school year is coming to an end

i dont know whether i am excited for school to end, or for dreading that another year is going to start, meaning that i am that much closer to graduating and living in the world.

i should really stop worrying about the future…